What a whirlwind of a weekend I had! I spent a good portion of my weekend on the road driving to and from Eastern Washington. My sister and I went to visit our grandparents whom we hadn't seen in a while and whom are having some health issues. My grandfather had a triple by-pass two months ago and my grandmother is showing signs of alzheimers and dementia. It's rough to have someone who helped raise you call you by a different name because she doesn't remember who you are. It was an emotionally draining weekend to say the least. So the feeling of needing an extra day off to deal with everything is in full effect, but I am at work and doing my best to stay focused.
That being said, while I was looking for today's Momentum Monday quote, I came upon this one and know how true it is for me and how I wish I'd had time to do this during the weekend, I might feel a bit better than I do today.
Today as I'm grasping for some form of sanity and concentration as a whole, it eludes me and I feel it slipping through my fingers. Stress and craziness of life seem to overwhelm us and we fall victim to it's whiles. Making us edgy and snippy, catty and mean, rude and depressed. When I get like that I feel as though I am not myself and that there is no silver lining to any cloud. I can't concentrate and all my thoughts are colliding in my head and I'm not able to make sense of anything, it's all just a great big jumble in there!
Yet when I run, there seems to be a clarity that comes with it. An ability to analyze, categorize, and file away the information in my head so that I can deal with it in an orderly fashion, rather than it all bombarding me at the same time. That bombardment is what overwhelms me, when I have to deal with everything at once instead of picking it apart and analyzing it. Running helps me to do just that and maybe could have helped me this weekend.
I would like to run tonight, but I won't be able to because I have a doctors appointment to talk about my "condition", something I am preparing myself to open up to you about. It's not something I can keep secret for much longer and I want to be honest with you about what is going on in my life and why certain things are happening the way they are.
So much stress and uncertainty in life, it can all get a little overwhelming at times. It's gotten to the point that now when I'm stressed, at the end of the day I don't say "I need a glass of wine", I say "I need to go for a run". A better and healthier way to deal with the stress, right?
Now it's your turn: Does running help you deal with the chaos in your head when you're stressed?