I did it.
I ran today.
It was a weekday morning run which I hardly ever get, so I took advantage of it. It was bright and sunny, yet still cool and crisp.
I ran 2 miles, which is more miles than I've ran since December. Which is a total of zero.
It was a combination of pain and elation.
Happiness and frustration.
Love and hate.
Pain because my lungs were pissed at me. The air was searing my lungs like oil on a hot skillet, my lungs hurt.
Elation because it was a beautiful, gorgeous day and I was out in it. Running. Something I've missed for months.
Happiness for being on a run AND by myself for those brief 30 minutes. There is not an hour that goes by that someone or something needs my attention, touch or interaction with. I just don't get time for me, and that is what running affords me. Some me time.
Frustration...that first damn mile. How come that first mile is such a bitch to run? I felt like I was slogging through sand. Feet were heavy, legs were stiff and my form was all over the place. But after that first mile was done, I felt...
Love! This communication between body and mind and road that happens is just what I've been needing, just what I've been looking for and something I knew I wanted.
Then hate (well I shouldn't use that word, it is a very strong word) because I had to stop running. But then it struck me, that for sure I was indeed a runner. This running momma is happy to report that she is back in business!
So I leave you with today's Momentum:
I've been cleared to run for a couple of weeks now. My attempts have been hindered by a myriad of complications, so the ability to get out and run today was a huge thing for me and I was so glad that I was able to take advantage of it. Now that I have run, I can't think of a day that should go by without a run in it. I look forward to tomorrow so that I can lace up my shoes again and feel the pavement under my feet, the air flowing(searing) through my lungs and the feeling of accomplishment for putting in the time and the effort for me and my running.
This was my first step back on my journey...when will you take yours?