Hello! I bet your saying welcome back stranger, right? It's been a while since I've been here! I know, I'm sorry, its just been crazy for me the past three weeks. Ever since my last post I've been a bit MIA, having a newborn will do that to you. :)
I wanted to thank everyone for the outpouring of support in regards to my last post where I shared about my disappointment with how my pregnancy was ending. All the kind words and stories that you shared were wonderful to read and I am thankful that you shared them with me. I have a lot to update you on with regards to how the birth went and the struggles I've had since that day, but that is for another post.
Today I am wanting to share about something that I'm having to learn and remind myself about everyday. It's a hard lesson and one that I think we all struggle with in so many facets of our lives, that it never really gets resolved. Is there actually a resolution? I'm not thinking so.
Today's Momentum Monday and life's lesson is:
With taking care of a newborn, attempting to take care of yourself and be somewhat coherent, you find that things get left out or neglected. You don't realize it until it all starts to pile up and you can no longer ignore the fact that it's staring you in the face. It could be anything from laundry, to mail, dirty dishes, as well as relationships and correspondence.
I have been bad at all of the above the past three weeks and I can't hide from it, it is what it is. I can blame sleep deprivation, lack of schedule and general life-being-turned-upside-down-because-of-baby. But I'm not looking for excuses and I'm not going to try and hold myself up to some Super Mom status that many mothers struggle to get themselves to. No, I am simply trying to figure out what I can do to find balance in my life so that I can finally have some sort of schedule or routine that can help to keep me sane and on track.
I bet you are looking for my bullet point list of ideas or thoughtful suggestions that I made for myself on how to achieve this balance I'm seeking. Well...hate to disappoint you, but I don't. I'm looking for balance, not simply trying to implement it. And that is the great chase that I think we all battle with, we are constantly looking for a way to balance out what we need to do with what we want to do. This imbalance is going to become even more apparent when I go back to work in a month. Holy cow is my life going to turn upside down when that happens. Too much to do and not enough hours in the day! I mean it's happening already, but I feel like the dial will be turned to warp speed when this transition occurs.
I am sharing this because I wanted to show that I don't have all the answers, I don't know how I can get everything I want to get done and still be that person who is just as involved in life events as I was before baby. I'm not Super Mom who lives daily life like it was taken from a Pinterest board. My laundry is in a pile on the bed unfolded, I have dirty dishes and bottle pieces piled up in the kitchen sink, there is a pile of mail that sorely needs my attention and I am in need of a shower. But if letting all this sit around for a day or two (other than the shower thing, lets be serious, life is better after a shower) because I'm spending some very important and much needed time with my newborn son, then I say it is all worth it.
I'll find time to get to these things...right after I find time to sleep.