Well, it's been a while since I've written a Monday post and I've decided to change it up a bit. I usually call it Momentum Monday, but lately I feel like I've been lacking (or downright missing) my mojo. So I've decided to change it to Monday Mojo, because sometimes I need to stoke the fires of my mojo to get me going for the rest of the week! Today is no exception!
It's not a secret that I've been struggling with my running. Inconsistent training, injuries and physical setbacks have kept me from getting out there and logging miles. Then I find that the longer I spend in between runs not running, the less I want to get out there and the easier it gets to make excuses not to run. Which is crazy because I feel better when I run and after I run. Running makes me want to run more and the more I run the better I feel. I always tell myself after every run, "man, I need to remember how good I feel!".
Now I'm not talking physically because most of the time I'm feeling soreness of some kind. I'm talking about mood. My general well-being. I know I am better after a run. So why is it so hard sometimes to get my ass out on the road. Laziness? Fatigue? Sleepiness? Maybe all of them? I don't know, I just know that I am better in so many ways when I get out there and log some time on the road.
This weekend was difficult for me because I was supposed to race (see: supposed) and it didn't happen. Another blow to my self-esteem. I had to keep myself from running a race I had really looked forward to because of a chronic injury I have, my hips. I'll explain more later when I write up my non-race recap. But I knew that if I pushed my luck I could run the risk of further injuring myself, and possibly irreparably. I can't take that chance, not if I want to continue to run for years to come. So not only was I not able to run, but with all of my friends and social media friends running in big races this weekend, I was constantly being reminded of the one thing I wasn't and couldn't be doing, running.
So today I decided to start working on rebuilding and finding my mojo again. So today's quote is so prevalent for me right now and I need to keep this in mind and ease back into running again.
I am still working on my journey. I have come a long way, but I still have so far to go. I have lost a lot of my progress that had been made over the past couple of years, but I know that I can get it all back if I just keep myself focused and start taking steps towards my goals.
Though I feel like I'm starting all over again. Starting from scratch. But really I'm not, that is just my mentality right now. My beaten down spirit for letting something I enjoy and take pride in, lapse into complacency and stagnance. I can do this. I know I can. I've done this before. I just need to believe in myself and take that first step.